A lot has changed since I have given birth to my baby. While I was prepared for some of it like the changes in my body and skin and the blood rain soon after I had my baby, there was one thing I wasn’t prepared for, i.e. my period. I had no idea my periods would never be the same again. I don’t know if it is just me or if other pregnant women go through the same thing. And if they do, I wonder why no one has spoken about it until now. I remember leaving the maternity ward with a ton of maxi pads and mesh panties. I don’t want to get too graphic, but it was like a murder scene down there. You get the idea.
Believe me, pushing a tiny human down my lady hole is no fun. You go through a lot of pain and tear and your lady bits will be a constant reminder of the battle you fought that day. I salute all the women who give birth to 3 or 4 babies. You guys deserve a Nobel prize. Now when it came to my period, I was prepared (kind of) for the blood flow. You just have to deal with it. There’s no other way. So that’s what I did. I dealt with it. I wore those big granny panties that made me feel least sexy when I was already feeling undesirable. I even survived my first poop and pee. But I was fine because I knew things wouldn’t be the same forever. I knew it would get better, and the blood flow would soon stop. But guess what? My periods never knew normal again. Here are 5 reasons I hate my periods since I have given birth:
1. My Period Has A Timetable Of Its Own
Yes, they have a mind of their own. They come as they wish, stay as long or short as they want to, and I have no idea when I will be getting my next one. Thanks to them, now I always carry a tampon everywhere I go.
2. My Period Tracking App Is On A Meltdown
Not once has my beloved tracker app been right. And I can’t blame them, can I? I used to love having the app because until I gave birth I always got my period at the right time. I wish I had some sort of normalcy in my life again.
3. I Dread Them More Than Before
When I was young I dreaded getting my period. The unpredictability of it all was kind of scary. I never knew when I have to run looking for a loo whether I was watching a movie or on a school trip. But soon the normalcy set in and I didn’t feel scary anymore. But I feel like I am reliving my teenage years again, only this time it is worse.
4. It Is Costing Me A Lot
Stocking up on tampons, sanitary towels, panty liners, and the inevitable pain killers is not easy on my wallet. Oh, and the emergency dark chocolate and pizza for when I am feeling low and moody.
5. The Fear Of Leaking
Whether I am standing in queue for my favorite cup of cold coffee and donut or waiting at the airport for my plane, my mind is always on alert mode wondering if I will embarrass myself by ruining the plane seat or my favorite skirt. The horror of leaking never leaves me and I feel I can never really enjoy a moment and relax when I am wearing something white.
Is it just me who is having a hell of a tough time adjusting to my new menstrual cycle? Or are there other ladies out there who have wished for menopause at some point after giving birth? Feel free to vent.